Today it's just a bad day for me. Hindi ako maka pagsmile dahil sa sobrang inis ko. It started yesterday. I was so excited to go home para ibalita sa parents ko about a possible new career that a friend told me. My dad just kept silent all the time. No reaction at all. While Mom was hesitant in a way because what will I do daw after one year, since the job will run only for a year. I told her that it's time for me to take a risk because kung hindi pa ngayon, kelan pa. She did not say No or Yes. I guess, she left it with me whatever decision I will make as long as sisiguraduhin ko na may trabaho ako after a year pag matapos na yung contract. So now, I'm quite confused again.
Muntik na naman kami mag argue dahil sa bar exam na yan. Which made me came to a decision that I will only take the bar exam when I am already capable of supporting myself. Ang hirap na umaasa ka sa iba dahil baka in the end sumbatan ka lang ng mga tao. Of course, I understand the situation of my parents. We are not wealthy in the first place. Sariling kayod talaga. Kaya nga I am taking a big step of transferring work for me to be able to save a liitle for my future and for my family.
So I just ended the conversation with a realization that if ever I will push true with this decision, I will prove to my parents that this is worth the risk. Naging mas mahirap na tuloy ngayon kasi parang hindi naman 100% yung support nila. Bahala na si Batman.
And what added to that sad feeling is the fact na may nalaman na naman ako na issue. Makainis. To think kapamilya mo pa sila tapos sila pa ang gagawa sayo ng ganyan.
And here comes another person na nag enlighten sa akin to make a big step. I kept on calling. From 7:35 of July 13 and 12:15 of July 14. Wala man lang ni isang sagot o kahit text man lang na hindi makapagsagot ng call.
and I can't continue this anymore... sh*t!
